Darkness.

This is my first try at poetry ever. i just felt like posting it.

Darkness

I’m surrounded by darkness
It’s a Comforting feeling
Because I am used to it
It’s a feeling I don’t want
But I can’t seem to get away from

This feeling makes me sad, depressed, angry.
But what can I do?
Since it also feels good at the same time it feels like me

Without this darkness I wouldn’t be me
Just a stranger to be pretending to be someone else

It makes me think about death,and all negative things in this so called life.
This life is slowly becoming insignificant atleast that is the feeling this darkness brings.

It’s confusing.
I don’t know why.

I wish I could be happy, smiling. be positive again
Yet I’m surrounded by this darkness everyday
I can’t remember when this darkness came

All I know is that it now belongs to me.
I accepted it, I let it in.
And now its to late…

This is my darkness and the darkness is me.

Fall Out Boy – Thnks fr th Mmrs

I had this song in my head for a while. But it seems pretty fitting with the things going on right now. Ok and to make it clear i am not a EMO.

Im gonna make it bend and break,
They sent you to me without wings,
Say a prayer, but let the good times roll,
In case God doesn’t show,
Let the good times roll (Let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right,
But its the wrong’s that make the words come to life,
Who does he think he is?
If that’s the worst you’ve got,
Better put your fingers back to the key.

One night and one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren’t so great,
He tastes like you, only sweeter,
One night, yea, one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Thanks for the memories,
See, he tastes like you, only sweeter.
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Been looking forward to the future,
But my eyesight is going bad,
And this crystal ball is,
Always cloudy except for (except for),
When you look into the past (look into the past),
One night stand (One night stand, oh)

One night and one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren’t so great,
He tastes like you, only sweeter,
One night, yea, one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Thanks for the memories,
See, he tastes like you, only sweeter.
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

They say I only think,
In the form of crunching numbers,
In hotel rooms, collecting Page Six lovers,
Get me out of my mind, and get you out of those clothes.
Im a liner away from getting you into the mood.
Woah-oh.

One night and one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren’t so great,
He tastes like you, only sweeter,
One night, (Woah) Yea (Woah) one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Thanks for the memories,
See, he tastes like you, only sweeter.
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

One more night,
One more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren’t so great,
He tastes like you, only sweeter,
One (more) night, Yea one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Thanks for the memories,
See, he tastes like you, only sweeter.
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh.

Frustrated:

So this week a lot of things made me angry. What i’m going write here some might not like. Well to bad, your out of luck.

I had a few minor problems this week nothing big. But then i went to the secondlife mentor meeting. Well i didnt knew yet it was going to be the last meeting. We are just volunteers. But in other words we got fired. That made me angry. As i have been a secondlife mentor since march 2008. Now i have really had it with LL we helped them out a lot and this is how to thanks us? I’m also part of other LL things like the translation group. But right now i don’t feel like doing anything for LL anymore. Helping new residents? No Secondlife is not a place i would recommend to anyone. Some people don’t think highly of us. But the fact is that the mentor group and the q&a is kinda like a community everyone tries to help eachother. It is true that we don’t need LL to do this. But it still sucks bigtime. If you ever got fired in rl you pretty much know how this is. For the blog post see:
https://blogs.secondlife.com/community/community/volunteers/blog/2009/11/18/volunteering-in-second-life-now-and-in-the-future

Then the second part: Changing xstreetsl.

The fucking greedy bitches really did it this time. I atleast, have to pay to keep my freebie box in life. I haven’t read the whole blog post yet. But anyway my thanks go out to: Springtempest Yuhara i wouldnt have know this without him/her. I don’t know the reason why they change stuff again. I don’t care about it anymore. When this goes active i probably no longer will be using xstreetsl ever again. Since LL owns xstreetsl it only went worse with it. Oh And if we have to believe Colossus Linden xstreetsl is doing so great. Well if it is doing so great why change it? Guess thats the LL thing again trying to fix things that aren’t broken. I am sick of that attitude. I understand LL is a company but it looks like they have no idea what the hell they are doing. I am not going to pay LL anymore. I pay enough as it is. This is probably going to be in the top 10 off biggest mistakes by LL lol. If you wanna know the so called facts see:
https://blogs.secondlife.com/community/commerce/blog/2009/11/18/roadmap–managing-freebies-on-xstreet-sl?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+LindenLabALL+%28Official+Second+Life+Blog+-+ALL+POSTS%29

If your reading this and are looking for a replacement for xstreetsl i suggest: http://www.metaverseexchange.com/

Ok this was kinda a rant not verry smart but i had to do it i won’t keep my mouth for anyone. And i will say what i want. Atleast here i can do that.

Second Style

Depending how good you know my blog and my flickr page you might already have seen some things from it. Together with a friend we started our own style blog. And we finaly managed to do a post hehe.
Just see our first post and dont worry we will get better in time lol this is also new for us so Still we just do it for fun.

If you want to follow our fashion/style and trends check it out at:
http://secondstyle.wordpress.com/